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Ok, i have no idea why im feeling this way, but slowly i get the feeling that the ppl arnd me are getting waaayyy too childish and immature for my liking.. they laugh loudly and have absolutely no care for the near future or their own interests at heart. they are spontaneous and do whatever they're heart wishes them to without thinking of the concequences. Im starting to get sick and tried giving advice to these ppl when they can even lie in front of my face. Downtrodden right now.. Wheres that someone i can have coffee with and chat the day away???? Wheres that person who is actually INTERESTED in growing spiritually? Wheres someone who just enjoys quiet moments with friends and enjoys each others company instead of making so much noise?? I need peace. I need quiet. I want my Mocha Latte. I need someone i can hold a proper conversation with without the giggling and childish babble im facing right now.
Oh yeah. i just realised this. I still like her. haha. funny thing isnt it. Lord, Please, grant me the ability to put this thing behind me and move on in serving and concentrating my life on you. This is taking too much of my time. And shes attached. Did i mention that? Its an up hill struggle that has been gg on for months. im at a complete loss of what to do. Sigh.
Archery.. Sigh. this scene of Archery politics is seriously Fucked up. Pardon my language. i cant find a more suitable word. Screw it. Im depending on the Lord to provide me a way now. Teach me how to rely on you For my acts of self righteousness and Self effort are nothing but filthy rags.
Can ANYONE please please please tell me what in the world is so interesting and fun abt getting in a relationship when ur not considering the possibility of marriage? i went thru one. it hurt, and i stopped there. some ppl just dont get it. its like putting a flame under ur arm and saying it hurts and not doing anything abt it. Sigh... This cycle of ungrace has got to end soon. I hope teens will seriously wake up their idea and STOP living in their dream fantasy of happily ever after. Have ur fun for 12 to 13 months. after that, Good luck. Wake up and smell the coffee.
I'm delerious.. Thinking analytically too much.. Henikien Rocks. Lord, help me. Please.