A Loner's Diary
this has got to be the most amnt of times i blogged.. 2 days in a row.. but cant help it.. i only blog when smth troulign me, and i must say this thing has been troubling me more than i can take it. Maturity? how long does it take for a person to reach maturity? i know u can be 18 with the mindset of a 3 year old. or vice versa. but still, is it a mere excuse to say: 'No, i am not interested in you. Get out of my life.' cos if it is, i rather take the harsh truth of life and live with it with a pinch of salt. Dont lie to me, cos it will be the last thing i do. thus i hope u will do the same.. after all, To love you means to ensure ur life long happiness. if it means with another guy, then so be it. i am prepared to let u go. 'Love comes in many forms. And i choose the hardest. Freedom.' Frankly, im perfectly ok with waiting. Just make me feel that all this waiting is worth something. It's tearing me in the inside whenever i see couples on the streets.. Or when my friends get to taste the sweetness in their own patch of heaven. And all i can do is stand aside and wish them the best, thinking when wud be my turn to taste the sweetness of this elusive thing called 'Love'.
I will wait Girl. I will wait. I pray that by doing so, one day i can look back and laugh at my silly self, for even doubting my everlasting love towards u. and at that time, i hope i'll have a time machine to go back to pass a message to myself, telling myself 3 words. "It's worth it"
This is a loner, signing outta his lonely diary =|