damn man. its amazing how music can affect ur thoughts. its just amazing how different genere of music can affect what u think. you dont need classical pianist like chopin to put u in the romantic mood. u can rely on some boy bands to do the same.the overall effect is the same. i've been listening to slow songs these few days. so no prizes tothose who guess how im feeling now. the only people who manage to chase away the blues are my friends. when im alone. my thoughts are running wild. just came out of bathing, and i swear, i cant get the tune of bittersweet symphony outta my head. theres just something about the sashaying of violins and the incredibly difficult task of deciphering what the heck that guy is singing, but still, its clinging onto me like a baby koala clings onto its mother. its so melonchaly yet so catchy. it appeals to me. it sets me to the mood to think abt my life so far. honestly, i've never shown my sad, emotional side to anyone before. No one. cause no one can truely appreciate the fine art of being well, sad. the reason why i appear so happy and jovial is because i enjoy it. i know this sounds contradicting , but i dont care. seeing people laugh and smile make me feel good. i really wouldnt mind if my mission in life was to make as many people laugh as possible. because theres nothing wrong with humour. a simple joke brightens up one's day, its the pinnicle of showing care and concern to those around you. because u really do right? theres more than just enjoying each other's company every week, or every day. if u truly care abt someone, be it ur spouse, best mate in life or just a regular friend, make him or her laugh. i seriously hope u will find as much joy as i do. in this life of mine, i've been trying so hard to fit in. in secondary school, believe it or not, i was a quiet person in school. i only talk to those i know. i was the target of most scrutiny because of my weight. after going thru an expierence like that, i truly treasure my friends around me cos they were the ones that gave me comfort in the times i need. now, after being conditioned by tampines JC where they turned me into one crazy extrovert, i want to do the same that my friends did for mi. cos at the end of it all, u have ur friends and family only right? thats why i hold those friends in class, church and especially SPAC so close to my heart. you guys rock my world. honestly. i cant imagine my world without my friends. it will become desolate, solitude, a wasteland. Right here, Right now, i wanna say thanks to all my friends out there. jeez.. theres so much in life to do.. what if im only gonna have 100 years to live? sry put thats what im listening to.. i cant stop imagining my future, how it will be like, etc. and when i talk abt future, im pretty sure close friends of mine know what im talking abt.. im like a lost sheep now. i dont know what to do. what does she mean by doing all these? quite frankly, im numb already. im not feeling anything. a feeling of nonchanlency has overwhelmed me whenever i think abt that subject. sigh. i have everything i need and everything i want. ( er neglect the ACC, Extreme limbs and leave them outside the picture for now =P) damn songs corrupting what im thinking.. gonna stop for now.. sry.. shld have added a small note at the top fo the blog to advice a dose of caffine before reading on. till then.
This is a loner signing outta his diary.