Woo.. been a while since i updated my blog.. been pretty busy and much has happened in this time span. Cant bring myself to fully comprehend what has happened but i'll try to jot down what i've been feeling. well, got sick 2 days back.. inflamed throat which brought about my flu and fever.. still feeling sickly as im writing this.hope to be well ASAP.. too many things to do. too much school work, too many emotions, too little time for training and more imptly, too little time for God. Our Father works in very funny ways dont u think? i would have never expected that the one person to approach me and give me guidance when i really needed it was my cousin. He just got to know God and is way ahead of me spiritually already. it puts me to shame and at the same time allows me to marvel at the way God works. He too was having relationship problems and gave some real good advice to me. He passed me a book entitled "Boy meets Girl" by Joshua Harris. I've just finished reading the book, and honestly, i've never felt so shameful of myself over my relationship before. It helped give meaning to the word 'Relationship', it defined it. Looking back, my relationship was sure based on all the wrong reasons. it was'nt God centred. It was self centred and selfish. I know all this talk could just make some people say that im using God as excuse to end my relationship, but i dont care. i only need to explain to him and no one else. i've taken a new outlook on relationships and i've still got questions to answer. Looking back, i was so immatured and i still was'nt spiritually ready to lead her in a God glorifying relationship.

i need a timeout.. God, be there for me.. i humbly seek Patience to see your wonderful plan for me unfold like a flower bud. I seek Wisdom, so i may lead myself in the right direction.

I'll end with this quote: Real love is always fated. It has been arranged before time. It is the most merticulously prepared of coincidences. And Fate of course, is simply a secular term for the Will of God and Coincidence of His Grace.