- Chopsticks -
Well, the holidays have been going smoothly so far.. just that i got some stuff that i wanted to do and am not doing as smothly as i expected. i was reading romans yesterday, as part of my holiday quest to finish the book of romans. i came upon a section where it said to rejoice in our tribulations. For tribulations brings forth perseverance, and perseverance character, and character Hope. Hope which does not dissapoint. Im really learning to hold onto that promise. i have no idea how else im gonna tide over what im feeling now. its like this jumble of thoughts and messed up thinking inside me. Jia ying, if ur reading this, all i gotta say is, im sorry. im sorry im avoiding you on purpose and im sorry for not being able to be my normal self around you.
Thoughts just cloud my mind and im hating my flesh for even coming up with thoughts like that. i seriously gotta stop this nonsense before it ruins our friendship.

In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, i rebuke these thoughts, never to return and haunt me.

Lord ! Save Me~