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Well, holidays are coming to an end soon, and i must say its a well deserved break. Results are out, and by God's grace i managed a 3.68.. culmulative is 0.09 short of making it 3.5. but im sure with God at my helm, Uni admissions is definitely possible. Amen and Thank You Lord.
Hm.. archers chalet went pretty much ok, had much fun and not much sleep, typical of any chalet come to think of it. Wild wild wet was fun although there werent many rides.. good thing there werent many people too.. Slide up was fun.. the look on yazid's face was priceless.. haha..
Well, just thought of blogging a little longer today to pen down all my thoughts.. take a dose of caffine and carry on then.

Was reading The annointing by R.T Kendall, my mum told me it was a good read, i must agree it is. it talks about the difference between being yesterday, today and tommorow's man. a little difficult to grasp i understand. in short, the past few weeks in my life has clearly been a "Yesterday's Man" era. i was a thing of the past. irrevelant to God's plans. The presence of the Holy Spirit had left me. God was not present in my thoughts and the annointing had clearly lifted from my life. Like a blind man i grope for the walls, seeking an answer to my problems. Scary isnt it? i was clearly jealous at the wrong things. i was jealous at other people's gifts, and i was jealous at how other people had 'taken over' me. This book made me realise how much i was struggling with the wrong things and scared me into just letting it go. i dont want to deprive myself of the Lord's blessings nor act under the false pretense of Doing his works. What now? you may ask. well, as much as i wan to hold on for the possibility, its time to Let Go. Let GO. LET GO.
The book was also telling us not to have too high an expectations for ourself. To work within the limits of our annointing. It got me thinking. Am i pushing myself too hard? am i serving in the correct ministry? Most imptly, am i carrying out the CORRECT plan the Lord has for me. It says everyone of us has gifts. quite honestly, i've been searching for that answer for the past few days. anyone reading this, care to list wad gifts i have? i had enough of imitating other people's high profile annointing. I just wanna serve the Lord using the gifts he gave me. Thats all.
The book also touched on success. How God will withold success on a person until he is truly ready to accept it for it may bring about his downfall. After reading that and comparing to my past relationship, i sinceely pray the Lord will not listen to my rash requests and only bless me with a new relationship when he sees fit, (ie: Me not taking myself too seriously)

Well, im closing now.. The last week of hols starts in another 6 hours. Hope to complete The book of romans and hike macritchie. =)