mm.. Slight feeling of lost overshadowing life in general now. Why? beats me. nothing seems to be going right. Well, not everything, but some aspects which i thought i had always done well. Feels weird haing to come to terms that your not what you used to be. And strangely enough, if it wasn't for the scheduled, albeit mundane Army life that i have to serve, i think ill be roaming the streets asking the most cliche'd of questions. "What on earth am i here for?" Finding direction has really never been so hard. So many questions, the ever elusive rare answers and.. Damn it, the feeling of not knowing what to do at this point of life. I think that statement pretty much sums up how im feeling. I've reached a plateau where life just doesnt seem to be going anywhere. Feels like a long stretch of road that i've gotta keep running. And very soon, i'll lose sight of what im running for. Everyday the same as yesterday, Every week the same as the one before. Every month a repetition. man. Time to break the damn monotomy. Time to go for the Gusto. But by doing what? The vicious cycle of questions prevail. Sigh, If life's a map, who has a God damn compass i can borrow?

Ah well, enough of ranting. Other than that, life's been pretty much standard. My work in The Office never seems to end, and in the near future, its only gonna get worse. BUT! its the last final push before I ORD. 3 Magically letters that never seem so well, magical. And oh, did i mention that im leaving overseas for a short trip tml? No? ah well, now you know. :P Just a short retreat, be back by friday.

*random* I need to get back to cooking. ASAP.